Course Note #136: I've won the Lottery!

This morning, after writing checks to pay the business bills, I fell into focusing on thoughts of lack and limitation, which is funny because I’ve just had one of the busiest months ever.  My husband happened to be here with me, and I walked into his office and commented on how I wished I’d win the lottery.  In order for that to happen, I’d have to start buying tickets! Ha!

I was feeling sort of dispirited, and then the mail arrived with a card from a friend. I opened it to read this:

“It’s amazing that we have to ‘let go’ to receive.  I mean the Course is telling us that we have indeed won the lottery.  I think we spend the entire process of ‘realizing’ this as our primary task.  Why do we have such a hard time cashing in the ticket?  I’m beginning to feel very safe all of the time now.  Finally!”   

As I read my friend’s divine message, I felt such gratitude for the connection that we all share.  Yes, to receive, I need only let go of an identity with the false self – you know the one – it chatters away about how you’ll never have enough, will never be enough, blah, blah, blah.

As I write this, Natalie Merchant's “Carnival” is playing, how appropriate: 

I’ve walked these streets

A virtual stage

It seemed to me

Make up on their faces

Actors took their

Places next to me.

Have I been blind

Have I been lost

Inside myself and

My own mind

Hypnotized

Mesmerized

By what my eyes have seen?

Have I been wrong

Have I been wise

To shut my eyes

And play along

Hypnotized

Paralyzed

By what my eyes have seen?

We do walk this world, mesmerized and hypnotized by what our eyes see.  It does take vigilance to turn away from the carnival, and rest once again in the silence beyond it.

I have a few quotes taped above my desk, and you know how it is with that sort of thing, after awhile they become like the wallpaper, there, but not really seen.  Moments before receiving the guidance to write this blog, I saw this quote from my friend Regina, one that I had snipped out of one of our email exchanges a couple years ago: 

“It is truly my belief and feeling that I will always be provided for perfectly if I give no thought to money and only give thought to knowing my guidance and following that, so that is my purpose.”

This really spoke to me this morning because as I move into a year of increased silence, as in, letting my “busy doing” be guided from the silence within, I no longer wish to be mesmerized by what form appears to show me. I now want to be mesmerized and hypnotized by the truth of Who I Am ~ Love.

My purpose is to know thy Self as Love created it,

 unlimited and Free.

My purpose is to be only Love,

 to know only Love

and to extend only Love.

My purpose is to know my guidance
and follow that. 

As I listen within the silence,

 I remember who I am.

With willingness to keep true purpose in the forefront, we are then guided to the realization that, Yes!  I have indeed, won the lottery!

~Thank you Jim for the reminder~

"There is no need to run outside
for better seeing,
nor to peer from a window.
Rather abide at the center of your being."
Lao-Tsu