Last year I received a message that essentially said, whatever it is that’s holding you back from making this particular change, is also holding you back in every area of your life. And then that night, over-and-over throughout the night I heard, “What’s holding me back? What’s holding me back?” In the wee hours I heard the answer when the inner voice replied, unworthiness.
I was somewhat surprised by this because while I could certainly recall having “I’m not good enough” feelings throughout my life, that didn’t seem to be driving me at that time. Once I realized the belief in my unworthiness was alive-and-well within my mind, I turned within for healing. Especially in the past year, I am amazed at what has been revealed to me. Yet, I feel to address it once again because as I watch my thoughts, I see the remnants of this belief hanging out in my mind.
Through deeper understanding I can see how this belief in unworthiness is inherent within most of us, albeit unconsciously. Unconscious beliefs must be looked at if they are to be healed. Through watching the thoughts in the mind, we begin to bring what was unconscious into the light of day.
Basically, the reason most of us are driven by this false belief is because it stems from the umbrella belief in separation. We have forgotten what we are, and we have fallen into listening to the voice of what we are not. The thoughts that we identify with come from the voice of our unworthiness.
“This belief has a voice within your mind. Its voice you call your thoughts. Only because you do not question this belief, you do not question these thoughts that you claim as yours. If you did question them, you would see that they are not loving thoughts. …they are based on the belief that there is something inherently wrong with you as a separate entity. These thoughts doubt your worth, and in fact, they deny your worth entirely. Thoughts that deny your worth also deny the Voice of Worth, which is the Holy Spirit.” (NTI Lk 1v57-80.10-19)
One may feel a sense of unworthiness for a myriad of reasons, and we’re mostly familiar with it when we compare ourselves with others and feel that we come up short. What often goes unrecognized, however, are the subtle ways this belief lurks within the recesses of the mind. Consciously or unconsciously one may feel that in order to feel worthy:
I must look a certain way.
I must do certain things.
I must have or own this or that.
I must be perfect.
So you see, we can be driven by the belief in our inherent unworthiness even when we don’t feel unworthy. Our projections that other people think they are better or more important, etc., are thoughts stemming from a belief in unworthiness. So many of the thoughts that we hold about other people stem from this false belief. Only through the lens of our perceived unworthiness can we see unworthiness in others.
How do I let go of unworthiness?
A practice I have found particularly helpful is to ask Spirit Within to reveal to me the errors in my mind. We cannot be shown what we are unwilling to see no matter how glaring it may be.
Recently, I was thinking thoughts about someone, and specifically my perception of their self-importance. I heard the Inner Voice, “Sheryl, that is a thought of unworthiness.” Aha!
Holy Spirit,
Thank you for showing me this false belief.
I am willing to let go of my belief in unworthiness.
I give it to You.
I trust that you will correct it for me.
Amen.
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When I woke up that morning with the recognition that what is holding me back is unworthiness I was prompted, once again, to NTI Luke, Chapter 8. This section is so incredibly valuable for healing.
“You are looking at yourself now and seeing what you believe is your unworthiness. As you compare yourself to others, you note that you are not good enough. You do not give enough or practice enough. In your own judgment, you are never enough.
“Let’s review what I have asked of you. I have asked you to trust that you are worthy. I have asked you to let your sickness (thoughts of unworthiness and self-hatred) rest. I have promised that we would look at these thoughts together, and I have asked you to nurse your willingness with gratitude.
“Now is the time for gratitude and rest. Be grateful that you have been willing to bring your sickness to Me. Rest, as we look at it together. For it cannot be healed if it is hidden from healing.
“Focus on your gratitude. Let the guilt and feelings of unworthiness rise. Remember that you are being healed, even now. Do not nurse your sickness. Let it come up, but choose to nurse your willingness to be healed.
“Let all things serve the purpose of healing. Do not avoid healing because you do not want to look at the pain of sickness. We must look at it together if you are to be healed. Do not be afraid. I am with you, even now.”
So many times over the past year when I have let my mind focus on false thoughts and beliefs, Spirit Within has reminded me of these words: “Sheryl, let’s review what I have asked of you…”
As I watch my thoughts, increasingly I ask myself, “Does this thought of unworthiness, or limitation or guilt, feed my resistance to healing or does it nurse my willingness to be healed?”
With such practice, we can create new experiences as we let go of the false beliefs that were creating previous experiences. I now see that I have been creating experiences of unworthiness, lack and limitation for decades based only on believing something that is not true! With awareness, I am learning to choose what I truly want, instead of continuing to choose what I don’t want.
This is so exciting!
You are worthy.
Do not let doubt tell you that you are not.
Feel grateful for your willingness.
It will herald all healing for you.
(NTI Lk 5.27-32)
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1 comments:
How do I let go of unworthiness?
I dont think we have to let go of it. If we accept we are loved even in in unworthiness it just doesnt matter. No more struggle to be worthy then. Being worthy of unworthy ceases to matter.
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