Tuesday, October 05, 2010

Course Note #76: Listen Only to your True Self

Hi There,

I’ve been receiving quite a bit of inner instruction lately on listening only to the voice of Holy Spirit, which is my true Self.  In A Course in Miracles we are taught that the unwatched mind makes up the unconscious. (Urtext T 2 E 23)
I find this to be incredible!  We think that the “unconsciousness” is what we’re not privy too, but we’re only unconsciousness of why we do the things we do because we don’t watch our thoughts.  I’ve been receiving the message to more consistently slow down within my mind and watch my thoughts. 
The mind is split between the desire to know myself as a child of God, and the desire to know myself as limited, lacking, fearful.  We might think, “Oh No! I don’t have the desire to know myself as limited, angry, or lacking!”  Oh really?  Then why do you experience yourself as limited, lacking and fearful in this world?
            We’re being asked to look at this split mind.  Healing is about the restoration of our mind so that it is no longer split between two desires.  Every thought we think feeds one desire or the other.
            Lately my Inner Teacher has been having me practice pausing and watching my thoughts before responding to people.  One of the areas where I have a difficult time keeping my mouth shut is in the area of politics.  I’ve come a long way over the years, but it’s amazing how I can sometimes fall into the trap of responding to things people say with my own opinions.  So this week, with this practice of hearing only my true Self in mind, I had the opportunity to see the value of this practice. 

            When the first person begin to spout off about everything that was wrong with the other political party (my party! Ha!), I saw myself respond automatically.  I guess I wasn’t totally on automatic pilot as I was able to keep from saying much of what I was thinking, but at the same time, afterward, I thought about why I felt the need to respond at all.
            Awhile later another person came in and started with similar rhetoric, but this time I paused and watched my thoughts, which were something along the lines of, …uh, you don’t really want to know. 
            I stopped in my mind and took a look at my thoughts – I looked at all the things I wanted to say, blah, blah, blah.  In the pause, I was able to bring awareness to the context of my thoughts.  I asked myself, “Are these thoughts the voice of separation, or the Voice of Love and union?”
It was obvious to me which voice I was listening to, and so I decided to let the thoughts go.  Once I let them go, my mind was available to hear a response that was obviously from the voice of Love. 
            I have worked with the public for twenty-five years as a chiropractor, and taught on spiritual principles for at least fifteen years, so I have had a lot of practice with this, and I’ve come a long way in regard to how I handle myself in relationship with other people; nevertheless, there are always deeper depths to travail. 

            See the thing is, we’re always going to have “my” thoughts, and these thoughts will always speak first and loudest in our mind.  We are being taught this most important work of watching our thoughts because it is our thoughts that create our lives.  It is our thoughts that unite us in the Kingdom of Heaven or in the illusion of hell. 
I read somewhere that our mind is like a tree, and birds are like thoughts.  It’s not necessary to watch the birds that fly in and out of the tree, watch those that build a nest there.  Which thoughts have built a nest in your mind?  Do you know?

            Let’s say that you consistently feel lack and fear around money.  Then you can be sure that there is a nest of thoughts in your mind that support the illusion of lack and limitation.  One way to work with this is to look at the areas in your life where you frequently feel frustration, confusion or struggle.  You can be sure that there is a nest of thoughts in your mind that support your feelings, and thus your experience.  Until we have looked at the nest of thoughts in our mind, we remain unaware of why we do the things we do. 
            The reason we have the same problems today as we had yesterday is because we think the same thoughts.  Most of us have been doing this work long enough that we are aware of what’s going in our mind, however, we can always go deeper in looking at those seemingly innocuous, automatic pilot thoughts that keep us stuck year-after-year. 
            I also see how this idea of pausing and looking at my thoughts can be helpful with long-held habit patterns.  Maybe the next time I walk into the kitchen, I’ll pause first and look at the thoughts in mind before I look into the refrigerator. 

            There’s a line in the Bible that I love, and I paraphrase, “We learn to take every thought and purpose captive, leading it into the obedience to the laws of Love.” (2 Corinthians 10:5, Amplified Bible)

            We are to be leaders in our own mind. Pause and watch your thoughts.  It is so easy to forget this as we go about the day and that’s why vigilance is required.  Vigilance, for me anyway, has become a labor of love as my willingness increases to be the love that I am every single day.
            So the way we hear only the voice of our true Self is to be willing to.  As luck would have it, I opened to a page in NTI this morning that speaks directly to hearing only the voice of Holy Spirit:
            “Listen for My words and you shall hear them, for I am always willing to speak to you.  You do not hear Me when I speak, because of your thinking and your thoughts about the meaning of the world.  But if you are willing to lay down your own thinking, you will hear Me.  When you are willing to lay down your own thinking completely, you will hear only Me, and you will rejoice.”  (NTI 2 Corinthians 8: 1-7)

            I don’t know about you, but it might be awhile before I am able to lay down my own thinking completely, but I persevere.  The Course acknowledges that humans have way too much to do and cannot be engaged in constant thought-watching.  Although, we’re not off the hook because it goes on to say that in order to be a miracle-worker you must have a trained mind. 
            “It is certainly much more useful to remind you that you do not guard your thoughts carefully enough, except for a relatively small part of the day. …You may feel at this point that it would take a miracle to enable you to do this, which is perfectly true.  Human beings are not used to miraculous thinking, but they CAN be TRAINED to think that way.
            “All miracle-workers have to be trained that way because I have to be able to count on them.  This means that I cannot allow them to leave their mind unguarded, or they will not be able to help me.  Miracle-working entails a full realization of the power of thought.”  (Urtext T 2 E 17, 18)
            For me anyway, this motivates me to more consistently pause and look at my thoughts before I open my mouth.  And then, to recognize if the thoughts are in alignment with my purpose to be the Love that I am.

            “Let Me tell you what it means to give everything. …You give through thought.  There literally is no other way to give.  This is a statement that is whole and completely your truth.  You give through thought. …Give, therefore, through your every thought only that which you would receive.”  (NTI 2 Corinthians 8:1-7, Ephesians 3:20)

            All minds are joined in this universe and we give to one another through our thoughts.  When I sit around thinking thoughts of judgment, lack and limitation, I’m not just delaying my own healing, but yours too. 
            “Every thought that you think is heard literally around the world.  …And so it is through thought that you teach, no matter what you are saying or doing, and no matter where you are.”  (NTI Luke 9:10-17)

            If you’re reading this, then Holy Spirit is speaking to you as this Voice of Love is speaking to me: It is now time to step up our game and recognize that the thoughts we hold in our mind facilitate the healing of us all.  Our purpose now is healing. 

Are the thoughts in my mind now feeding my desire to know my Self as God created me, or are they feeding my desire to know myself as limited?  I can choose again.  In this moment I can remember, “Oh My God! I’m Free!” and walk out these prison doors.  Wow!

As we go about our lives this week, may we be ever more willing to listen to the Voice of healing that is the Voice of Worth.  Listen to the Voice that does not crucify.

As usual, the audio contains a lot more than I was able to write about here, including one of my favorite songs.  Shawn Gallaway – I Choose Love.

This audio was recorded on 10/5/10 and is 1 hour and 9 min.
Listen only to the Voice of your True Self

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