Sunday, September 13, 2009

Course Note #26: I Am in Need of Nothing but the Truth

In the last few weeks I’ve been feeling somewhat stagnant. And then suddenly, I heard the call to go deeper into Truth, to make a greater commitment to viewing all things with the vision of Love. It seems that everything I’ve read or listened to this week has reinforced this feeling of needing to take the next step.

This morning I opened A Course in Miracles to lesson 106: Let me be still and listen to the truth. As I meditated with it, I was reminded that truth will correct all errors in my mind, and that I am in need of nothing but the truth. As I rest in God I return to the truth that I am as God created me.

Then I went on a long walk with my dog Max. I often have new insights and inspirations on walks and this morning was no exception. I thought of the idea of letting go and letting God, and had a sense that I was to go deeper into the practice of those words.

Over the years I’ve worked with the practice of letting go, and it never ceases to amaze me that there are always deeper depths to travail. What does it mean to “let go”? And just what am I supposed to let go of? These thoughts came to mind:

To let go is to recognize that the past is over. It can touch me not.
To let go is to place my future into the hands of God.
To let go is to step back in this moment and let Love lead the way
To let go is to recognize in this moment that I am in need of nothing but the truth.
To let go is to let all things be exactly as they are.
To let go is to give no thought to any worldly concerns.
To let go is to give no thought to my needs, or wants or desires.

Seems like a lot of stuff to let go of but really, it’s very simple. It all boils down to letting go of thoughts about my self. All thoughts about me, myself and I, are mired in material conditions and appearances. All thoughts about my self keep me stuck in lack, limitation and fear. While mired in thoughts about my self, I cannot hear the voice of my True Self, which speaks only of the Truth of my being.

Simple? Easier said than done, no doubt. Then I asked, “How do I practice this?”
Well, the first clue that I’m thinking about my self are feelings of fear, lack, limitation, inadequacy, or unworthiness. Once I’m aware of this, I don’t need to struggle with the thoughts, or beat myself up about them, nor do I need to resist them. I simply let them go, and take a moment to rest in truth. Truth reminds me that I am still as Love created me.

The practice of letting go is done daily, hourly, and even moment-by-moment. I feel the call to vigilantly practice letting go of personal desires, wants and needs, and simply rest in the thought that I am in need of nothing but the truth. Lesson 251 states in part:

I sought for many things, and found despair.
Now do I seek but one, for in that one is all I need.
Now I see that I need only truth.
In that, all needs are satisfied, all cravings end,
all hopes are finally fulfilled.
Now I have everything that I could need.
Now I have everything that I could want.
And now at last I find myself at peace.
And for that peace, I give thanks.

As I let my mind rest on such thoughts on my morning walk, I began to receive guidance about an issue with my business that I’d been thinking about lately. After fifteen years in my current office, I had been thinking that it was too expensive and when my lease is up in May, I might let it go for a smaller office. My husband and I have had a few discussions about this over recent weeks. But I have also surrendered these thoughts to God, trusting that I would know what to do when the time came.
I realized that nothing has changed there. It’s not like a partner abandoned ship and left me stuck with paying more. What has changed is my mind – my mind has been stagnant in the muck of appearances.

In my lectures I’ve talked about the idea that we may be unhappy in a job, relationship or environment, and think that if we leave it and go to a new one, we will be happy. The problem is that if we leave a situation in that state of consciousness, we will create the same situation in the next job, relationship or city. Most of us have probably experienced this in some aspect of our lives. I’ve always been the type who was willing to look at my self and work through my stuff, so it was a surprise this morning to realize that I had fallen into that consciousness in regard to my business.

If I leave my current office to get a less expensive office, but I take my “scarcity consciousness” with me (and I will if I leave thinking that I can no longer afford the current office), then my business will either dissipate so that I’m struggling to pay bills, or my expenses will rise. Either way, I’ll still be experiencing the effects of my consciousness of lack in that aspect of my life.
This doesn’t mean that I can’t leave the office and find another one, or move into doing something else with my life. From the mindset of letting go of needs, wants and desires and resting on Truth, I may be guided to a new situation, however, that’s totally different than leaving out of feelings of scarcity.

So what needs to change? My mind. The funny thing about it all is that I’ve had my own business for 24 years, and been in this office for 15, always managing to pay the expenses. At least at the moment, I don’t need to think about it at all -- I am in need of nothing but the truth. Amen.

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Monday, September 07, 2009

Course Note #25: World as Witness

and the world smiles
with you.

Lesson 23 in A Course in Miracles tells me that I can escape the world I see by giving up attack thoughts. It says that this idea contains the only way out of fear that will succeed. Nothing else will work.

It can be a rude awakening to find out that it's my thoughts that need to be changed, not the people and conditions in the world. With the willingness to recognize my thoughts as cause, along with that comes the happy news that I am not trapped by my circumstances.

Holy Spirit
I know that I can escape from
the world I see
by giving up attack thoughts
about _______.
I can't do it by myself.
Lend me your vision
so that I may
be free,
and share my freedom
with the world.

I am determined to see differently. I will vigilantly practice this week to see every one and everything through the eyes of Love. And then, I will see a world where attack has been replaced with peace, laughter has replaced fear, and smiles replace tears. Thank you for helping me see that this is so.

May we join in this vision.

Course Note #24: I Let Go

I Let Go
and Let God be God.
I let go of all worry, doubt and fear,
and Let Truth be my Guide
through every experience.

I Let Go
and Let God work through me
to bless others.
I Let God use my hands to give comfort,
and use my heart to extend compassion.
I Let God use my mind to
bring new ideas to the world.
I Let God use my voice to speak of love and healing
and miracles.

I Let Go
and let God reveal through me,
the power of Love.

I Let Go
and Let God be God.